squirrely

Now is the time for me to rise to my feet
Wipe your spit from my face
Wipe these tears from my eyes
I've got to take my life back
One chance to make it right
I've gotta have my voice be heard
And bring meaning to this life
Cause I trusted for nothing
I've been led astray
I've been tried and tested
But i won't accept defeat
Now I've done things I regret
And it's time to reverse the roles
I just want to make good on
all the promises that I have made

I WILL BE HEARD

Exhibit A:



Exhibit B:



*stabstabstab*

I flew beyond the sun before it was time
Burning all the gold that held me inside my shell
Waiting for you to pull me back in
I almost had the world in my sight

Lost love
Bright eyes fading
Faster than stars falling
How can I tell you that I've failed
Tell you I failed

Falling from grace cause I've been away too long
Leaving you behind with my lonesome song
Now I'm lost in oblivion

I tried to burrow a hole into the ground
Breaking all the fingers and the nails from my hand
The eyes of a child see no wrong
Ignorant bliss impending doom

Lost love
Bright eyes fading
Faster than stars falling
How can I tell you that I've failed
Tell you I failed

Falling from grace cause I've been away too long
Leaving you behind with my lonesome song
Now I'm lost in

Falling from grace cause I've been away too long
Leaving you behind with my lonesome song
Now I'm lost in oblivion

...because segueing from "Take me home tonight" by Eddie Money to Head strong by Trapt is not okay. I don't give a FUCK if Trapt is from Los Gatos and qualifies as a "local" band. YOU RUINED MY 80'S HARD-ON, 107.7 THE BONE. F YOU.

Can someone who doesn't suck at HTML (like I do) redesign my LJ page? I tried to swap out a photo, and they completely changed their code so I royally fucked my page back into a generic and gross layout.

Glad I got to shoot there before it went up in flames.

...and I wish you knew I cared,
But then indifference is the best revenge.
Never thought I'd be glad
That we are not the best of friends.

Hawaii was fun, but I'm really broke now. I still like my new job, and the fact that my boss is as laid back as I am.

Photography has been the therapy that deals with the tremendous anxiety of impending bills, debts, pressure, and expectations...even though it also causes all of those things too. Hah. Catch 22.

I don't know what the fuck I'm doing for my birthday. I wanted to rent a hotel room at Hotel Triton in the City, but I'm 2k in debt. I'm about to cut that debt in half come friday, but renting out a hotel room would put me right back to 2k, I'm sure. Suggestions? Ideas?

Lame restaurants are not an good suggestion, bee tee double you. :D

I sent my resume to activsion on Monday.
They called me Tuesday.
We set up an interview for Thursday.

The interview took 50 minutes.
They called me 2 hours later to tell me I got the job.
They wanted me to start immediately.

I went to work at EA afterward and told my boss I was quitting.
He talked to HR and told me that Friday would be my last day.
I drank beer during lunch and was home in my boxers by 2:30

It felt fucking therapeutic to leave EA behind. That place has been a sinking ship for quite sometime. I just didn't want to be on it when it finally went under. I may be working for the devil now, but at least Satan pays well. My schedule is going to be complete ass, is the only drawback with this new gig. I've been enjoying the regular photo-adventures that Jenn and I have been going on. Makes me feel excited about art and experiencing new things...makes me feel alive.

I want this to be a better year. I don't want it to be easier or more forgiving, because that would be asking too much from chance and fate. Hah. Just a better year overall, but anything will be better than last year I'm sure.

Can I watch ur kidz?

It's tripping me out how much this song sounds like a Deftones song.

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can't speak
can't talk
can't do anything they want

can't hide
or change your mind
gonna live w/ all my soul
inside

can't speak
can't talk
can't stop for the reeling cause
or love
I told 'em all about it
can't talk
cause I'm already lost

can't think
can't cry
keep thinking of a suicide
it's hard
I just can't forget it
gonna fade cause I'm already dead

can't think
can't dream
don't care if I live or die
don't talk
I just can't believe it
gonna fade cause I'm already deadcan't speak
can't lie
don't go anywhere to hide
can't think
can't cry
keep thinking of a suicide

can't speak
can't talk
can't do anything I want
can't hide
or change your mind
gonna live w/ all my soul inside

"So what are you doing this weekend Pete?"
"I think I'm going to my friend's house, starting the party early, and then heading out to the city to a club my friend owns."
"That's cool"
"You wanna roll with?"
"I dunno, I'm not really much of a club person"
"Well I'm sure we could find you a nice goth club or something.
"...MOTHERFUCKER DO I LOOK LIKE I GO TO GOTH CLUBS?!? I go to bars, you asshole"
"I'm just fuckin with you man, calm down. Haha"

Totally got owned. :(

This picture makes me feel kinda funny. :X

My bank died.

I went this morning to go cash/deposit checks. Kinda weird walking into a WAMU after hearing that it's fubar'd and the government is going to have to bail it out. I was expecting the newark branch to be lit on fire and even if I could brave the flames; a massive gladiator would be swinging a morning star, keeping people at bay who were trying to make withdrawls.

Clearly, I'm disappointed. :(